Still thinking of him ma?

After viewed Bob's blog..

He suddenly run into my mind..

Some kinda feeling..

Can't explain by mouth..

Can't too by words..

He meant too much for me in this period..

Two years time..

Not a short period..

He almost appear side to me everyday in this 2 years..

It's hard for me to overcome in the begin..

But now..

I'm okay already..

Cause someone enter to my life..

Am i so stubborn..

Until he can't stand me anymore?

Am i really that bad and so hated?

Really don't know how to talk to him lately..

Before we apart..

He do really make me angry cause he sent me the stupid message..

I really don't why he done that to me?

Wei Zhong came back that time from KL..

Is that his idea?

Wei Khee and Wei Zhi also a big bag boom..

Nobody explain to me why..

That time i'm so upset..

Cry every single day..

And he's still appeared in front of me every single day..

Cause me and him are working at the same place..

And it doesn't mean anything to him..

Sadly..

He don't look me when i pass by his side..

He don't want to listen to me when i asked question..

I kept sending sms to him..

But he don't reply me at all..

How could he done that to me?

But I just acted like i'm OK fine..

1 week..

2 weeks..

1 month..

2 months..

It's the time i should left..

I have to continue my studies in UUM, Kedah..

And education become the most differentation between me and him..

I left sadly..

Disappointly..

He sent me a sms and he asked me to study bersungguh-sungguh..

And i cried just after i saw that sms..

Don't know why..

Am i touched by his words?

Or maybe i release cause he finally sent me sms...

I suddenly lost controled..

I cried out loud..

And the people beside me just SHOCKED..

Haha..

Today till here la..

Cause my notebook low bat already..

New guy~

I'm here in UUM already 3 months..

LYS to LPK..

I'm quite enjoy in this game..

Well, I'm not meaning that I'm playing who or who..

Just a feeling..

Can't explain it by words..

Speechless..

Well, both quite a good guy too..

And honestly I've been attracted by them too..

But I don't know will this feeling comes easily then will go easily too..

I hope won't..

One is same batch junior, another one is senior..

Both of them are taking the same course..

So coincidence..

The person I mention the first makes me feel so true..

An innocent guy..

Cute..

And the other one like a father to me..

He is now suffering the same situation that i faced it when I'm form 4..

But i do really wish he can do better than me..

Do more better than me..

God bless him..

God bless you my bad senior..

Well, maybe only you can talk something nosense like rubbish to me..

So i do really got a very special feeling on you..

I'm not that kinda girl that always concern bout how a guy's out look..

I feel that deep inside your heart and brain..

There is more than others expect..

I hope you can be happy..

I hope you can make me feel happy..

I hope you are the one who can bring happiness to me..

Really..

I do..

Sorry cause I always go and make you see me..

Make you feel that I got fate with you..

But now I do like and enjoy the relationship between us..

Seems got some special but seems don't have too..

Haha..

I'm so childish..

It's me ain't..

Haha..

You are influenced me..

I became a silly like you already now..

So stupid..

But I enjoy..

Thank you senior..

Thank you LPK..

=)

U & ME

There's been months we were apart.

Everything goes right over me here.

How bout you, my dear?

Sorry cause I got no more excuse for me to get along with you again.

We have to realize that we are not the suit pairs that our love can last forever.

You do bring a lot of hapiness to me.

A very thank you to you, my dear.

Sorry that i couldn't give you trust.

I knew i'm so bad.

That's why i leave.

Sorry i can't face your family.

Sorry you can't be my good husband or even a good father for my child.

I know it's not fair to you.

But i have to take action before i regret.

A thousand sorry i apologize.

I don't want to continue this stupid life with you.

I can't.

You should know that i'm not a girl that you can control easily.

I want a brand new life.

I've start a brand new life in here UUM.

The life i never try before.

Meet some people that i never meet before.

Do something i never do before.

I'm not suit for you.

Sorry become the last word from me to you.

I do really wish u can be happy all the time.

I don't want you to be sad for me.

I don't deserve it.

I'm so damn.

Forget me if that could make you feel better.